My Life, My Goals, My Plans and My Money

IMG_20170430_173438_874[1]I want to drive a LEXUS, an AUDI, an ACURA, a BENZ or a BMW just to name a few…as long as it’s one like the car from Migo’s Bad and Bougie video that the girls popped out of. I can see me rolling like that with me and all my good looking friends. I DON’T CARE IF IT’S USED OR NEW AS LONG AS IT’S MINE AND IT’S WHAT I LIKE. I’M NO LONGER IN A PLACE WHERE I FEEL AS THOUGH MONEY IS AN ISSUE, IT’S WHAT YOU DO WITH IT. I WAS MAKING GOOD MONEY EVERY WEEK AND BLEW IT ALL AWAY! I COULD’VE BEEN HAD MY DREAM CAR OR AT LEAST SECURED A TRIP TO MIAMI. I’ve been listening to Jen Sincero’s audiobook “YOU ARE A BAD ASS, HOW TO STOP DOUBTING YOURSELF AND START LIVNG AN AWESOME LIFE.” I used to always listen to people who made the safe choice in life, going for the reliable car vs the one you really want, you know the more expensive one. But I always say none of those people aren’t me and he’s why: I don’t think like them I will find a way to fund the life I want to live and I’m not settling for less than that. I am a positive person and I will speak these things into existence. I want it, I shall have it and it is mine!

You have no idea how powerful you truly are. You can align yourself with all the right people who have the same energy and it all seems possible even if it doesn’t happen for you yet but trust the process. Everything will happen when it’s supposed to. Time is just an illusion, it’s not even a factor. When you put all energy into something you really want you don’t even think about how much time it takes. Time flies by so don’t get left behind. I don’t want to wake up and my twenties are over and now I’m thirty and didn’t live how I wanted to. I don’t have to succumb to everyone else’s way of living or thinking. I’m out to get everything I set my heart out to get. Even right down to the men. I want someone who can take care of me, and provide me with a better lifestyle than I already had. I’m not mediocre so not everyone can talk to me or have my time. If you not on my level or on the level I myself aspire to be on then we ain’t got nothing to talk about boo. And it’s ok you’ll find someone but I’m not that girl. I like men and women who make boss moves. Those are the kind of people I wanna associate myself with because we vibrate on the same frequency. My man has to compliment me bringing more than just dick and problems to table. I have dealt with some mediocre situationships as well and I let those ships sail too. Bye Boy. They were leading me to an alternate destination, not where I want to be. It’s just been dead weight and wasted time. Time to upgrade my way of living and the company I keep. Oh and I know how money plays the part in a relationship, you won’t see me being the type of girl standing by her no good man just because he makes the money, nah homie, I secure my own bag too. Guys hate when a girl don’t need them, well some guys anyway, those are the weak ones I don’t associate with at all. But more on that later.

Like I said before, money was never a problem, it’s what you do with it. I now have another job and I’m already thinking of my exit strategy so I had to come up with a plan. Because who wants to work their life away 40 hours a week making the next person rich? Not me.

Like many young adults I have debt that I have to take care of and this is my year to do that. I am on my way to financial freedom because there’s so much I wanna experience and I don’t ever want a bad financial situation to hold me back any longer. I can’t get to the fun part until I conquer the bad.

It took lots of financial mistakes to get to this mindset to fix it. Anything can be fixed! I used my Mint app to monitor my income and expenses and it turns out I was making more than enough to take care of my debt but my spending was so bad…

Anyway, here’s what I decided to do:

Step 1: Tally up how much debt there is and set up automatic payments to get it out the way, take yourself out that process and just let them do it.

Step 2: Look at ways you could cut back on expenses like eating out and buy groceries to cook. Every time when I paid for something quick to eat I also see that it would’ve been cheaper if I just bought the ingredients and did it myself

Step 3: Write down everything you want in this world and start taking that money and stashing it just for those purposes. Nothing is impossible and you don’t have to punish yourself just because there’s loads of debt. All this can be taken care of simultaneously.

Step 4: Become an entrepreneur, I got a great idea to come up with so that I can make my exit strategy from this job or at least make it part time and get that Lexus that I want lol. Like I said before I will make it happen and I will find away.

Step 5: Cut all the Excess going out and partying, like a meme once said, you ain’t missing out on nothing when you getting your shit together. There’s nothing wrong with staying low and out the way while you working on ya glow up, do what you gotta do now and you’ll run into everyone again, that’s inevitable so you’ll be ready.

Step 6: Chase a check never chase a dick lol. I had to catch myself cuz I almost fell into my feelings. Lust is real, snap out of it and stay focused on the mission. Because I’m single and been dealing with guys who ain’t been good for me, I now know what I want and won’t settle for, my man will come when he’s supposed to. So in the meantime focus on yourself, and get your wealth and mental health in check. Sometimes guys ain’t nothing but dick with problems. That is beneath you and you deserve more than that so stay focused on the mission

These are just some of my thoughts and feelings about life, money and energy. You can have and do anything you want in this world. It’s all possible. Stay away from negative people who will drain you and distract you. Go and start living the life you want.

Social Media and Your Existence

After having a falling out with one of my former followers, I was inspired to challenge myself to just log out of all my social media for a while.

Reason: Some things I post about are personal and usually are about someone and the way they make me feel among other things. Social Media is an outlet. And I’d put it all out there except that I have a personal journal for that. I don’t name drop or give too much and although someone is always watching, I feel as though no one really knows me or who I really talk about from time to time. So why would I feel as though I have to watch what I say? Knowing me comes with actual human, social interaction and communication.

So what did I do?: I initially wanted to go thirty days without any Instagram, Facebook, Twitter and Snapchat and just get out there and be more social. I wanted to use this time to get back to what makes my spirit glow. I love to dance and so I took it to the studio. I’m really shy but I had the courage to ask my manager to let me leave early so that I can make this class on time. I traveled all the way to Philly to take BSwan’s modern/jazz class at the Performance Garage. Now once I entered in the building I just knew I finally found the spot where all the real working dancing are. Of course I felt a little intimidated, my training has been spotty over the years and haven’t had a real class in a while. I was always a natural dancer with the passion but little technique. After the class ended I got my money’s worth and felt so relaxed. That was the medicine I needed to get rid of some anxiety due to always being plugged in among other things. 

Now here’s where social media came back into play: After talking to a couple dancers and networking, I realized that you can’t stay in the loop unless you are plugged in. Social media is great for business and building your platform. In today’s society that’s how we’re connected. However it has become saturated with a lot of noise. Noise means that it’s a bunch of drama, too turnt upness, and stuff that reminds you of where you don’t want to be in your life right now. Every time, I see a post of someone or celebrities seeming to be living a great life I wish I can live like that now too. But after years of just watching and wishing I needed to make that transition from watching my phone and tv screen to actually make it onto your tv screen too. I want to be seen on stage or in music videos for big artists and I’m not gonna get there unless there’s some action to it!

So now what: I am feeling like a couple times a week I will engage in social activities that will build my career as well as tend to my spirit, and I’m glad I met people who share the same goals. I didn’t have too many friends who share the same interests and I will be sticking around, the vibes are real. I felt like for once I wasn’t existing and that I actually lived and came to life. Everyday is a chance to experience and live life to its fullest. You never know who you’re going to meet or how quick your life can change. Sometimes it feels like you are just existing and it’s up to you to change that.

How much time do you really have?

FB_IMG_1493567002805[1] Seems as if we really are living in a simulation where it’s full of 9-5s and mindless distractions. How many times are we gonna keep finding our selves “caught up” in this time trap? Why was I so worried about how I feel about someone that seven years have gone by and still ain’t really making no real moves out here yet. I met that boy when I was 16 and here I am 24 now. Today I took a dance class and the song we danced to had a specific lyric that seemed to resonate with me: I give my youth to you. That’s exactly what I did. I’ve been chasing that feeling I had with my ex for the longest time since I was a teenager and it hasn’t benefited me not one bit. See we felt something very powerful and still to this day have that connection that cannot be ignored. I wanted that forever thang and he just isn’t available for it cuz he got shit to do. I see why people turn their feelings off to get business taken care of. Love has been the ultimate distraction. Yes it is a beautiful thing to enjoy but can also hurt. Then when you go looking for it, you end up lost. Every guy that I ever came across just was never what I wanted or never bought what I need them to bring. Then when you throw in sex in the equation it’s like you wanna be the freak you are with just one person that you already exposed yourself to. You don’t wanna keep starting over with new niggas and then you end up with depressed and sad pussy, You ain’t getting none and it’s frustrating. When you don’t have access to that same comfort you start losing your mind and going crazy. Nobody has been worthy of starting that journey all over with. So then what? You go back? You could….but then you just starting the same dumb ass cycle again. I don’t know if I’m scared of what’s out there or don’t feel like going through more disappointments. Being single is hard. Really am considering dating myself for a while and get this money and stay out the way. I got one more year till I’m 25 and I haven’t accomplished much of anything yet. I gotta snap out of it. I could really be doing big things here now. We don’t get these years back, I haven’t lived yet and what’s meant to be will be in due time. Gotta get out these feelings and know that the universe got me.

Allow Me To Introduce Myself

Hi everyone,
 Welcome to my blog, my name is Kapreecia but you will commonly know me as Pree. I’m 24 years old and I’d like you guys to have a peek into my everyday life. I’m just your average everyday girl from Camden, NJ, living in the hood, who has big goals and dreams of making it in the entertainment industry. I’m talking about dancing in music videos, modeling, among other things and creating a brand for myself. I’m new to this but writing is something I was doing privately. Maybe one day I would like to publish a book or two just to say I did. I’m sure there are other girls out there like me trying to find their way in the world especially now in our early twenties. As time passes, I’ll introduce things about me that may shock you but it’s just all apart of me tryna get my shit together lol. When you come from nothing and wandering around with no clear path and distractions in your way, you go through “the struggle”. The struggle helps make you better and aspire to be better. So until I’m where I want to be in life, enjoy this journey with me.
TTYL,
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Pree…